Sunday, December 31, 2017

Travel Diary -1 (Himalayas - Mussoorie - Rishikesh)

For the lack of a concrete idea for an article, I am putting down my travel experiences from a recent backpacking trip to north India. Much like a backpacking trip, these random musings are without any direction and purpose.

 The Dead Himalayan Winter Trek

In quite some contrast to what I had expected, the winter in Himalayas entailed most difficult conditions for life that I had ever come across, let alone being conducive for some leisurely climatic indulgence. During a 4-day trek to Kedarkantha summit, I could only mostly see a bleak stillness around – like a spinning and springing ballet dancer in a flowing white gown suddenly becoming transfixed as the music stopped, the mountains seemed to come to stand still in the cold winter’s fury.
                                     
Looking at the naked trees, standing tall and fighting for survival; vast swathes of tiny grass smothered by the weight of thick layers of snow; lakes frozen and streams rendered almost motionless; the wild hiding in caves leaving only trails of footprints and hollow-eyed locals squatting in the corners of their tents, one can only wonder what is life without Sun and its warmth.

 Mussoorie

After the rugged 4-day trek under helpless conditions and an enforced routine, it was time to let myself loose.  So, the day after the trek, I set forth to Mussorie in the coolest attire I could pull out from my baggage, along with all the accessories that I might need on my mission to chill. With good ambience, scenic views and decent food in mind, I explored cafes strolling along the hilly terrain of Mussorie, with a narcissistic pleasure.  I managed to find a couple of nicely furnished, artistically decorated cafes situated in places offering panoramic views. They looked like ideal settings to satisfy Instagrammers' fetish for food-centered photography; a latte topped by delicate froth-art with distant hills as the backdrop, a grilled sandwich juxtaposed by antique art pieces, pastas looked over by abstract wall-posters  and cheesecakes melting against dew drops - you have all the shots covered. Talking about myself, sitting in those places, with an intriguing book on one hand, sumptuous food on the other, and sceneries that hooked my gaze, at one moment it felt like the ultimate freedom that I might had been chasing all this while, and the very next moment it struck as a disillusionment of fleeting worldly pleasures collapsing all the frills around like a pack of cards.

 Rishikesh

Entering into Rishikesh the next day, I was as amused as a 10-year old kid in Disney World for the first time. It appeared like a seeker’s paradise and a rationalist’s nightmare. A town straddling Ganga along hilly slopes, Rishikesh, with its plethora of ancient temples, yoga ashrams, ayurvedic clinics and a whole gamut of therapy and healing centers based on nature, touch, sound, crystals, rudraksh, chakras, hypnotism, numerology, past life regressions etc. etc., in every nook and corner, opens the door to an enigmatic world that promises inner well-being  - things that will make rationalists squirm in discomfort, but I wouldn’t disqualify anything without a firsthand experience.  It’s not just this - from the fun and frolic of rafting, camping and adventure-sports by riverside to ascetic life styles of saffron-clad sadhus involving rigorous yogic practices, from pot-smoking revelers to pious devotees, from rejuvenating body massages offered by spas to holy dips in cold waters of Ganga, from sublimely original to utterly fake, it’s a majestic mixture of many things, all coexisting in one place. Words of immense meaning and gravity – Karma, Nirvana, Mantra, Moksha – are recklessly used everywhere for a touch of mystique.  I found my peace in encountering a whole new realm to explore and the possibility of knowing.


Sunday, November 12, 2017

Body and beyond

                              Writing has been a means of catharsis for me. For the inarticulate and ever-confused person that I am, the ability to string together a few words and give a shape and form to my thoughts and emotions occasionally has been a great source of relief and joy.  There hasn’t been a particular theme in what I have written, but I have always liked to find some order and pattern in the chaos of human lives and behaviors, based on my superficial observations and borrowed ideas, so much so that I sometimes end up philosophizing profound things in a shallow and self-serving manner. As much as I want to avoid that, I am writing the below post, dwelling upon some moving life experiences while throwing light on an existential reality that we all know to some extent.

                                  Yoga, as I understand, is a profound science which embodies methods and processes to enhance human faculties (body, mind and life energies), enabling one to reach his ultimate potential and experience life in the highest way. Talking about human emotions, as anyone would have noticed, every human emotion is associated with a physical expression – like one naturally smiles when he is happy or grinds his teeth and clenches his firsts in anger. Human body takes many such common, recurring and noticeable patterns depending on the emotional state one is in. There is a stereotypical wall poster silhouette for every emotion that we go through. By a symmetric logic, one aspect of Yoga is about consciously maintaining body in different postures to establish certain equanimity and emotional pleasantness in oneself. To put it simply, it essentially uses physical geometry as the basis of creating a human experience. However when it comes to our day to day lives, we  go through a variety of involuntary and compulsive physical motions, without often noticing how they affect us and what they indicate about our state of mind. We live sliding in this spiral of cause and effect oblivious to their connections. But, when the most seemingly mechanical and stereotypical physical expressions manifest naturally within you out of some intense experiences, you cannot help wondering at the gravity of these connections. So was I through a few experiences and emotional rides at different points in my life standing as a witness to the antics of my own subtle transformations. Let me call these emotions as devotion, bliss and despair, though no single word can encompass the intricacies of any human experience. Here is a glimpse of each of these times.

Devotion
                       
                                After much anticipation and procrastination, I finally enrolled for the Isha foundation’s Inner Engineering program in Bangalore a few months ago. The program is designed by Saghuguru Jaggi Vasudev, based on yogic practices with the objective of enabling people to manage their inner well being. It was the final day of the program where Sadhguru himself was to guide a large gathering of people to perform a powerful Kriya (a 21 minute practice), which was meant to be the start of a spiritual journey for many. Having myself read, heard and seen much about the possibilities of Yoga and what Sadhguru had to offer, I was excited to be a part of it and hoped to practice everything that I was going to learn with necessary commitment. As I got down at the location that day and walked towards the venue it was amusing to see a large number of Isha volunteers spread across the place, greeting everyone passing by with an immaculate ‘Namaskar’ (placing palms together) and a smile on their face. Their gestures and greetings never faded throughout the day. They were so endearing and natural that, I kept wondering about the source and commonality of their exuberance. The venue was a large exhibition hall with a stage at the front for Sadhuguru and Isha’s music band performing live. Thousands of people came by to attend the program and they were helped by volunteers to sit across the vast hall in an orderly manner. After an opening address from an Isha member, Sadhuguru took over and gradually set the context and condition for the Kriya to be followed in a very sensible and witty manner as always. Despite my inability to comfortably sit in a cross legged posture for a long time, I had prepared to keep myself as undisturbable as possible for that day, for those 21 minutes. Finally, the much awaited 21 minutes transpired under Sadhguru’s instructions and invocations. There were no thunderstorms of enlightenment, nor any outbursts of liberation as my mind hesitantly wished for. But at the same time, it was not just another few minutes of my life, of closing eyes, trying to do some breathing exercises while hopelessly fighting daydreams. A few minutes into the Kriya, I felt some strange and heavy vibrations spreading through my body ion by ion in an unfamiliar manner, trying to sweep me over completely. I didn’t know what it was, but the grip and hold of the vibrations was so strong that I felt a frightening sense of excitement about what was going to happen. The experience lasted for a few minutes and ended before those frenzied vibrations could engulf me. After I opened my eyes, I sat there in stunned silence, a silence deeper than quietness, submitting myself to the realization of unknown forces within me. In the dawning of an unexplored aspect of my own being, I was left spellbound. The logical mind took a backseat; I was not interested in what it had to say. Despite the short and fleeting nature of the experience, just thinking about it brought tears to me. Immediately after that, as Sadhuguru started greeting everyone, walking along the podium which dissected the hall - in quite some contrast to the cynical and rigid personality that I am, I stood there unmoving, with my head bowed down and palms glued to each other with absolute humbleness and moist eyes, oblivious to the surroundings - not merely because it was the formality there, not because it is a social etiquette, not even because I had to reciprocate the gesture – I just had no other way to be. In submission to the overwhelming experience of an unknown and untouched energy within me and to the guru who shook me out of the ignorance which never saw it, bowing down and joining my hands was the only way to be. I realized, when you understand your insignificance in the larger scheme of things or appreciate the essence of anything you look at, joining hands and bowing down is a natural expression. I realized 'Namaskar' is not a mere social gesture or a moral code but a conscious mechanism to drop your self-infatuation and become appreciative of the opposite. 



To be continued...

Sunday, October 15, 2017

Of love

My first Telugu writing attempt..(translation of Sadhguru's poem "Of love" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VpJVKQS6sps)


రేఖ మలిచింది నీ ప్రేమ తీరాన్ని
అడ్డు ఆపింది నీ జాలి కెరటాన్ని
విశ్వాన్ని శాసించే బ్రహ్మ రాతలా
శూన్యాన దాగున్న గ్రహ, తారల కక్ష్యలా
సంఘాల, సంస్క్రుతుల నియమాల కంచెలా
అరచేత అచ్చైన అస్పష్ట రేఖలా
అహ, పక్షపాతాలు స్రుష్టించు గోడలా
రేఖ మలిచింది నీ ప్రేమ తీరాన్ని
అడ్డు ఆపింది నీ జాలి కెరటాన్ని
గడిచేను జీవితం వ్యర్ధ స్పర్ధల్లో

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సరిహద్దులు ఎరుగడుగా, ప్రేమించే మనిషి.